Ruth & Koru

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I have to admit I’ve been having a hard time with photography lately.

Being in business by alone is often a lonely, stressful world when you’re constantly second guessing yourself, being hyper critical and generally thinking that the work you put out isn’t good enough. I know a lot of photographers feel this way and I’m sure people in other industries do too!

Lately I’ve been so busy with commercial work that I haven’t had time to breathe, let alone enjoy what I’m doing.

The to do list is so long. New website, invoicing, new designs, equipment purchases, emails, shooting shooting…..editing editing editing…..Being constantly under the pump is such a passion killer and it’s so easy to forget that love that I have for taking photos. I’m so lucky and grateful to be able to do what I love for a job, but what happens when your job that is your passion becomes ‘same old, same old’, with a bunch of stress on top? This is what I’ve been struggling with lately.

It’s such an obvious thing, but something I’d completely forgotten. Again, for the millionth time, it’s just so important to do personal work. The last time I took photos for myself was a whole year ago. How is it that you can completely forget to take photos for a whole year?! I don’t know, but it happened. And I realised that this, more than anything is the reason I’m so uninspired!

I was blessed with my first nephew earlier this year, Koru. He is such a ball of sweetness and I just love his cheeky wee grin. I’m so lucky to have him and his mama & papa down the road, ready for cuddles at any time.

Ruth popped round this afternoon with Koru in tow. I dragged her & Koru out into the garden, and today, for the first time in a year, I went and took some photos for me. I feel so much better already.